"Everything Is You" - Original Poetry By Me

When I'm by your side I'm happy,
A happy that I've never been,
Secretly holding hands on buses,
Stealing kisses in between.

When I'm alone I think of you,
And all the wonderful things you are,
Your laughter, looks and tenderness,
You are my Brazilian Star.

When I sleep at night I dream of you,
With a smile fixed on my face,
I hear your words all full of love,
They fly around the place.

But when we are together,
Oh together: no greater power,
I want those moments to last eternally,
Kiss you forever in the shower.

What I'm saying is you've rocked my world,
I love you; everything you are and do,
For me, my love, you're everything,
And everything is you.

© 06/2009

"Amazing" - Original Poetry By Me

I'm running a fever,
My heart's gonna blow,
Crazy in love,
It's amazing you know!

See the sun in your hair,
The sea on your skin,
See the love in your eyes,
This heaven we're in.

Wanna shout from the rooftops,
This poet's in love!
A kiss from your lips,
Sends me soaring above.

Meu amor, eu te amo!
Meu coração e seus,

Seus olhos falar tudo,

Meu presente de Deus.

And I can't think of nothing,
Just you, only you...
I'm yours so completely,
I'm yours oh so true.

Because your love is like magic,
With your touch I take flight,
As you kiss me and hold me,
All through the night.

Oh this feeling's amazing,
Amazing is you!
And amazing is us,
And our love oh so true.

© 06/2009

The Way He Makes Me Feel

This beautiful song by Barbra Streisand just says it all for me...

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There's no chill and yet I shiver
There's no flame and yet I burn
I'm not sure what I'm afraid of
And yet I'm trembling

There's no storm yet I hear thunder
And I'm breathless why I wonder
Weak one moment then the next I'm fine
I feel as if I'm falling Every time I close my eyes
And flowing through my body Is a river of surprise
Feelings are awakening I hardly recognize as mine

What are all these new sensations
What's the secret they reveal
I'm not sure I understand
But I like the way I feel

Oh why, why, why, why, oh Why is it that every time I close my eyes he's there
The water shining on his skin, The sunlight in his hair
And all the while I'm thinking things
That I can't wait to share with him...

I'm a bundle of confusion
Yet it has a strange appeal
Did it all begin with him And the way he makes me feel
I like the way he makes me feel, he makes me feel,
I like the way, I like the way he makes me feel.

Back To Life

"So I held my breath and jumped..."

First of all I want to say sorry for not being around so much but I have had some very good reasons...

All my dear blogging friends and people who have been following my blog will know that the past four or five months have been extremely difficult for me. I ended a long-term relationship of 13 years and even though I hadn't been happy for the last 5 years of it it was still a very stressfull time for me as I needed to re-start my life without knowing what the next day would bring... not knowing if I would be o.k. and if I could survive it all.
I decided that I couldn't spend the rest of my life in that situation and that if I didn't make a decision it would risk my future happiness and well-being, so I held my breath and jumped...
But even though it was a very scary time it was also very exciting to actually not know where the future would be taking me, there's something very energizing and therapeutic about all of that... So I made myself strong, kept a one-track mind and just thought about myself and my happiness in life, it was the best decision I have ever made, thank God that I have got through the worst.

I moved back to Rio alone and I am still in a transition, professionally speaking, as I am having interviews and looking for work. But I am optimistic and I know that everything will work out for me as I have some wonderful guardian angels looking after me and guiding me in the right directions, I truly believe that, as my life has always worked out o.k. in the past and out of every terrible situation that I have been through there has always been joy and happiness at the other side of the tunnel. Maybe it's just the way that I deal with things, thinking positively and striving to improve everything in my life without distractions. I know that I am stronger than I think and it is at these times that I truly surprise myself as to what I can be capable of, but I like to think that there is a spiritual side to it all and that we only have a certain amount of control of our destinies - everything is already mapped out for us.

But something truly wonderful has happened to me: I'm in love, but so in love!! and I am the happiest I have been in many years.
His name is Claudinho, he is 25 years old, moreno (which is the name given to a Brazilian with naturally tanned skin), Carioca (which is the name given to someone from Rio de Janeiro), dark hair, dark eyes, a typical Brazilian latin guy and extremely handsome, loving, funny and caring.
We are in a serious relationship and I can't think about anything else in this world and I feel ten years younger!
We go out every weekend, we go to the beach and we have a great time.... life is so wonderful!!!

There's been rain and storms in my life, there's been heartache, pain, loss and tears, but the sun has come out and shone onto my life, bringing me golden love, happiness, laughter and joy, and boy do I deserve it!!!

Whoever my God is I thank you for getting me through all of this and giving me back my smile and laughter, throughout everything I never lost faith.

This is dedicated to you Claudinho - Eu Te Amo!!!!!

"Happiness" - Original Poetry By Me

A summer breeze has lifted me,
And blown right through my soul,
A lightness fills my body,
As I climb out of my hole.

Can it be dark days are over?
Can it be they're out of sight?
Can it be I'm no longer surrounded,
By artificial light?

It has been a rollercoaster,
And I've been screaming to get off,
Losing faith within myself,
I was the flame that burns the moth.

But something good has happened,
I've been sent a gift of love,
And I know that my Mum sent it,
From her home there up above.

So I continue walking,
I no longer feel a mess,
My heart is singing the joy of life,
And it's full of happiness.


© 04/2009

Keane - Try Again (Live at the O2 Arena, London)

The soundtrack to my life at the moment continues to be any song by the fantastic British band Keane and this track is just beautiful...

Every time he sings the part:
"God I wish you could see me now, you'd pick me up and you'd sort me out."
I instantly think of my Mum and the tears arrive (regular readers of my blog will know that she was an extremely strong woman and an extremely loving Mother who helped me through many truly difficult times in my life, supported me unconditionally and gave me strength to get through everything. She passed away shortly after I came to live in Brasil)
because I know that she would "pick me up and sort me out" with just a few words of advice, her wisdom and her love.

So on a day when I feel so, so low, am wishing that my Mum was here and I am thinking "God I wish you could see me now" I wanted to post this beautiful song and music video: "Try Again" by Keane.

There's no words that could describe it, or do it justice, as it is so, so beautiful.... so enjoy!

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Try Again

I fell asleep on a late night train
I missed my stop and I went round again
Why would I wanna see you now?
To fix it up, make it up somehow
Baby I'll try again, try again
Baby I die every night, every time

What I was isn't what I am
I'd change back but I don't know if I can
Still I'll try, try again, try again
Baby I die every night, every time

But I was made the way I am
I'm not a stone; I'm just a man
Lay down your arms and I will lay down mine
Reap back the time that we've been wasting

God I wish you could see me now
You'd pick me up and you'd sort me out
Baby I'll try again, try again
Baby I die every night, every time