"I've Loved And Learned"- Original Poetry By Me

I've had my years of sadness,
And I've had my years of joy,
I've ran along the road of life,
Just like a little boy.

Been in the hands of a monster,
And he almost took my life,
I escaped but I just don't know how,
Maybe because he dropped the knife...

Then I thought that I'd found happy,
Spent years within that dream,
Sometimes you wake up suddenly,
Things are just not what they seem...

Lost my best friend David at 24,
That shook me right down to my soul,
I'll never forget the secret kiss you gave,
Going home from our clubland troll.

But Mum oh how I miss you!
You're my greatest loss of all,
Still think of you and my tears just stream,
Still wanting your daily phone call.

Now my life has changed again,
And I hope it's full of light,
I'm singing in the moonlight glow,
And dancing through the night.

Regrets I've only had a few,
Even though I have been burned,
My life was for a reason,
And at least I've loved and learned...

© 07/2009

"Prime" - A Romantic Gem!

This film is fast becoming one of my favourites: "Prime" starring Meryl Streep, Uma Thurman and Bryan Greenberg.
No it's not a summer blockbuster, it's not a special-effects laden film, and it wasn't a huge success at the cinema either - in my opinion it was hugely overlooked amongst all the big blockbusters at the time...
but if you have the time and want to settle down and watch a wonderful funny, sad and romantic little film about the human heart and the love that surrounds us, regardless of age or religion then rent this little gem on Dvd! In fact it's a perfect film to watch at home on Dvd.

Uma Thurman is "Rafi" a 30 something career woman who has recently divorced her husband and is regularly seeing her therapist "Lisa" played by an extremely funny Meryl Streep.
Soon Rafi begins a relationship with 23 year old "David" and finds true happiness for the first time in years. However she confides in her therapist and tells her everything about the affair and how she (or rather everyone else) is concerned about the age difference and also the fact that being as he is Jewish and she is not that there are also conflicts within his family for him to only have relationships within his own faith.

Needless to say they fall in love, unexpected things happen at the therapist's office, unexpected secrets are revealed and the fun and games begin with Meryl Streep stuck in the middle!

It's not the usual sappy romantic comedy with all the expected things happening (as much as I love those films too!) and it's nothing like those films where you already know the ending before the film has begun, it's totally unexpected and full of wonderful little surprises.

In my opinion it's one of Uma Thurman's best roles... she gives a subtle but strong performance that is full of heart and emotion and as always Meryl Streep shines! Every role I have seen her in just seems like it was made for her; but then that is the power of a true actress! And newcomer Bryan Greenberg holds his own against these two strong women and he is proving to be an up and coming talent.

See it soon with someone you love, or watch it alone, either way you will be left with a warm fuzzy feeling all over and the need to kiss the nearest person to you as the end credits roll!!

I loved it!!! But then, as you all know, I'm a romantic fool!!!!!

The Meaning Of Love To Me...

At this wonderful, joyous time in my life, a new beginning where I feel happier than I have ever felt in many, many years, which isn't really true as I can't remember ever being this happy before... I often find myself stopping and looking at my life from the outside and see a person overjoyed with love, adoration and happiness and all of this is thanks to Claudinho, who has reminded me that wonderful, fantastic, loving, caring, beautiful, honest, faithful and genuine people DO exist in this world.
He has made me see that love is greater than anything else in the world and I can't think about anybody or anything else.... nobody and nothing else seems to matter now and I find myself smiling every minute of the day and night, I even wake up from dreams with a feeling of overflowing love and happiness.

The feeling I now feel is as if I have just woken up from many years spent in a coma and my life is only just now beginning, and the reason is you Meu Amor. You are the greatest gift that I have been given.

So what is love? Some scientific people say that it is just a chemical that the human body and brain creates to help reproduction, but I'm not a scientist and I dont have a scientific brain, my brain and heart are those of a pure romantic and I don't believe any of that scientific stuff.
I'm a romantic soul and for me love is something that magically appears when two people are so wonderful for one another, when the chemistry and physical attraction overflow with excitement and passion and the hearts and bodies of two people join together to become one and in return results in the sharing of everything together, a new life is created.

No chemical can create what I am feeling now, it's not chemical; it's all natural. The pure love and happiness that I feel when we are together, the longing that I desperately feel when we are apart and all the times in between when I only have you on my mind, your name on my lips, your touch on my skin, your voice in my ears, your beauty in my heart, your smell on my body and all your love washing over me like a river of endless passionate kisses.

Yes I'm truly blessed and I know it! Blessed to have found you, blessed to feel all your love and kisses, and blessed to know and understand the true meaning of love... the meaning of love to me... and it's all because of you!

Te Amo Muito Meu Amor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :P

"Amor Amor Amor" - Original Poetry By Me

Our love has taken me higher,
So much higher than before,
Feelings now much stronger,
Fall into your arms Amor.

And each time we are together,
You charm me with your love,
Your loving ways are everything,
And your kisses fly above.

You are the one I've dreamed of,
And now we wear our rings,
So happy; so together,
With all the joy love brings.

So once again I tell you,
That you're everything to me,
As we walk hand in hand,
For all the world to see.

Amor you've changed my life,
So in love like never before,
You are my Brazilian Beauty,
Meu Amor Amor Amor.

© 07/2009

Never Be Afraid To Be Yourself...

Reading back over some past posts of mine I found the words that my Mum had written in a card that she gave me the very last time that I saw her, the day that I came to live in Brasil.
It was from the post "Scenes From Another Room: My Story - Part 2"
She wrote the card as I was sleeping the very last night that we spent together in London. She hadn't been able to sleep and spent almost all night in the kitchen thinking, crying and writing these words to me:

My Beautiful Darling Son,
This week has been the worst week of my life, knowing that I am losing you. I've tried to hide it from you as I didn't want to spoil our last week together. Go and live your life and always be happy, the way that I have seen you these past few months. Travel as much as you can and see the world and then when you write home and tell me all about it I will live through your eyes and see everything that you have seen. I can't tell you how blessed I feel to have a Son as wonderful as you, as loving as you, as thoughtful and kind as you are.
Always follow your dreams, anything you want to do just do it because too much time is spent in life thinking about whether or not we should do something and worrying about what other people think, so never be afraid to be yourself...
I've put three thousand pounds in this card so that you have some money to fall back on should you need it, but if times are ever hard out there let us know and we will send you some more. I love you, I love you, I love you! and see you next Christmas!
All my love, Mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

That time was terrible for both of us and I can say without a doubt in my mind that it was the hardest thing about coming to live here, knowing that I would be far from my Mother who was always the biggest inspiration in my life, my biggest support, and never in a million years would I have imagined that only one year later she would be gone from my life forever.

But reading those words of her's again now she reminds me why I have always sought happiness in my life.... it has always been my Mother who has given me the inspiration to seek happiness, to grasp opportunities to be happy and to live my life every single day.
So I don't feel sad when I read her beautiful words to me.... I smile.
I feel extremely lucky and blessed to have had an extremely loving and modern Mother who showed me so much love every single day of my life, who supported me through good times and bad times, and taught me that all kinds of love are important in this world and that nobody has anything to be ashamed of; if they love somebody of the same sex, of a different colour or religion... She always said "Love is love in any language, no matter what"

She was, and still is, so important to me in my life that I know that she is always still around, I feel her around me so often, and there's no doubt that she is smiling for me now in this extremely happy and joyful new beginning in my life!

I love you forever Mum! Walk by my side always and whenever I need you I will reach out to hold your hand...