Back To Life

"So I held my breath and jumped..."

First of all I want to say sorry for not being around so much but I have had some very good reasons...

All my dear blogging friends and people who have been following my blog will know that the past four or five months have been extremely difficult for me. I ended a long-term relationship of 13 years and even though I hadn't been happy for the last 5 years of it it was still a very stressfull time for me as I needed to re-start my life without knowing what the next day would bring... not knowing if I would be o.k. and if I could survive it all.
I decided that I couldn't spend the rest of my life in that situation and that if I didn't make a decision it would risk my future happiness and well-being, so I held my breath and jumped...
But even though it was a very scary time it was also very exciting to actually not know where the future would be taking me, there's something very energizing and therapeutic about all of that... So I made myself strong, kept a one-track mind and just thought about myself and my happiness in life, it was the best decision I have ever made, thank God that I have got through the worst.

I moved back to Rio alone and I am still in a transition, professionally speaking, as I am having interviews and looking for work. But I am optimistic and I know that everything will work out for me as I have some wonderful guardian angels looking after me and guiding me in the right directions, I truly believe that, as my life has always worked out o.k. in the past and out of every terrible situation that I have been through there has always been joy and happiness at the other side of the tunnel. Maybe it's just the way that I deal with things, thinking positively and striving to improve everything in my life without distractions. I know that I am stronger than I think and it is at these times that I truly surprise myself as to what I can be capable of, but I like to think that there is a spiritual side to it all and that we only have a certain amount of control of our destinies - everything is already mapped out for us.

But something truly wonderful has happened to me: I'm in love, but so in love!! and I am the happiest I have been in many years.
His name is Claudinho, he is 25 years old, moreno (which is the name given to a Brazilian with naturally tanned skin), Carioca (which is the name given to someone from Rio de Janeiro), dark hair, dark eyes, a typical Brazilian latin guy and extremely handsome, loving, funny and caring.
We are in a serious relationship and I can't think about anything else in this world and I feel ten years younger!
We go out every weekend, we go to the beach and we have a great time.... life is so wonderful!!!

There's been rain and storms in my life, there's been heartache, pain, loss and tears, but the sun has come out and shone onto my life, bringing me golden love, happiness, laughter and joy, and boy do I deserve it!!!

Whoever my God is I thank you for getting me through all of this and giving me back my smile and laughter, throughout everything I never lost faith.

This is dedicated to you Claudinho - Eu Te Amo!!!!!