Lately I am "stuck" in my working life and don't know which road to take... let me explain:I come from a big family of newspaper workers (printers, photographers and journalists) my Father is a newspaper photographer and my Mother was a journalist and since the age of 18 I worked for newspapers, and some magazines too, for many years (all my working life in the U.K.) which I enjoyed so much.
So when I came to Brasil of course all that had to change for me as the language here is Portuguese and not English, so I started working in English schools as a native English teacher.
The year I arrived here the (then) government was giving away working and living visas to anyone who had gone over their 3 months to stay in the country, it was an "Amnesty for Foreigners"
So of course I applied and got my permanent visa (which is a kind of i.d card) along with full legal status to live and work in Brasil as long as I like, of which I was so lucky to get as the current President would never do anything like this for foreigners in Brasil, if it was now I would have had to leave Brasil years ago.
So off I went to the English schools, working visa in hand, and started having interviews all over the place...
To my amazement my permanent visa "scared" most of the Director's in the schools as they are so used to foreigners coming to Brasil and working illegally, of which they prefer (cheaper for them), so my visa was worthless in my new-found occupation.
I did get lots of work as all schools love to hire native-speaking teachers who bring much more business for them as most people prefer to have a British or American teacher.
Anyway I had all my interviews, chose the school who paid the most money and stuck with them... for a while.
Over the years I have had uncountable bad experiences within the English schools... I have changed schools like most people change their socks, I have been cheated out of money, been given the worst lessons (late nights and early mornings), had to travel to dangerous places (most of my lessons were outside of the schools, working in companies all over the city) and have never had the same rights as Brazilian workers have: health insurance paid by the companies, paid sick-leave and holiday pay, travelling expenses to and from the lessons, Christmas bonus, e.t.c...
So basically if I was ever sick and couldn't work, or had a couple of weeks holiday when my family visited me then I never got paid.
A while ago I was cheated once more and got so frustrated with being so exploited over the years that I ended up giving up working in English schools altogether and just gave private lessons instead.
Now I am so fed up of teaching English... I'm in a rut and I don't have the same inspiration as before... in truth it's making me very depressed.
I know what you are thinking: You have your permanent visa - why not do something else?
but the problem is unless you are in an industry (like oil) here in Brasil then it is so difficult for a foreigner to do anything else here but teach English, so I am stuck on a straight road where I really need to turn left and do something different but I have no means or chance to do so.
I feel like I am not working to my full potential and when I remember how happy I was in my work in England it makes me sad.
Don't get me wrong; I don't think I am such a special person that I should be doing something "more important" - I would clean toilets if I had to, and if it made me happy, and I'm not the kind of person who thinks that some jobs are lower than others, I see everyone as equal and always have.
I am so happy in every other part of my life here in Brasil and I love Brasil so very, very much, I just wish that I had the choice, or chance, to change my profession to something I would once again enjoy and be happy with... I feel as if I am not a complete person anymore :(


8 comments:
Hi!
I got here through Maggie May's blog, and I'm glad I came! Your comment about living abroad sparked my interest, as I'm currently doing just that too.
I like your observations about teaching English in Brazil - it's strange for me, as I chose English teaching as my profession and my experiences in Japan and Russia are very different to yours in Brazil (quite obviously, I think!).
Will be visiting again - and btw, your babies are SO cute.....and I love Bridget Jones too!!
Take care,
Peter
Hi Donnie!
Sometimes we have this felling, but I guess we never had to listen 'em, 'cause I know you , and you are a wonderful person, with greats hobbies, hehe, and stuck with this felling is like stuck with something that hurts you. You said that feel as if you're not a complete person. Of course you are. I mean, you have legs, arms, eyes, mouth, ears, and everything else, hehe, Seriously You have to put this felling away, hidde it , and never try to find it again, 'cause is this that make the humans do something they'll never do, Of course you can take vantagem
advantage of this. You have to try do things that brings peace, and makes you happy. Maybe I'm saying a lot of silly things but I think that we really are incomplete when you star to think that you are incomplete, so if you think happy and that you are complete, you'll see that this thoughts will bring to you a little more confidence!
Abração Irmão!
And always you fell alone I'm here!
:D
Hmmmm, that's a tough one. But recognising and voicing the problem is a good first step! Remember that brilliant line from 'Polar Express': "One thing about trains ... it doesn't matter where they're going, the important thing is deciding to get on". i.e. don't try or expect to have a direction at this point, just start heading somewhere different to where you are now!!! Good luck.
Hi Peter!
Thank you for your visit!
It's good to hear that you too are an ex-pat who understands my position! (albeit different from your's)
I will add you to my "Blog Jukebox" if that's ok and will pass by your Blog for a read!
All the Best!!
Hi Leo!!
Thank you so much for your kind and inspiring words my friend!
Abração Irmão!
Hi gonebacksouth!
Thank you! your words are very true! I will just try to (eventually) find something that will make me happy again!
Have a great week!!
Senti algo parecido quando morei no interior de São Paulo. Não importa o quanto somos bem acolhidos, chega uma hora em que algo nos diz que não pertencemos aquele lugar. Mas é claro que podemos superar tudo isso. Já faz algum tempo que vc vem falando sobre isso, percebeu? Boa sorte meu amigo, e não se deixe abater, volte no tempo e descubra o que lhe trouxe essa saudade. Um grande abraço.
I can understand the feelings. I think sometimes we feel stuck in a rut with our work.Is there something that you could study in your spare time? While you carried on with the teaching? Something that would help you to get into a better (in your eyes) job?
I have an award for you at my site.
Oi maker!
Muitobrigadomesmo pelos suas palavras muito gentil!
eu espero eu pode ficar mais feliz em minha vida profesional logo!
Obrigado pelo força!
Abraçao amigo!
Hi maggie may,
Thank you for your kind words!
I guess I will have to start studying something to try to improve my professional life here! I will definately start looking into that now!
Hugs!
Hi MOB!
Thank you so much for the award!!
I am already displaying it here with pride! What an honour to receive an award like this from you! as you are a excellent writer!!!
Thank you again!! :)
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